Welcome to Angela at Lurchers and many thanks to her for being the hostess this week - 59 participants - what a wonderful way to start the "New Year" for Fun Monday.
Top drawer - notebook for my daily scribblings, old glasses that I use when I am upstairs, a weighted bookmark (I never use it because I mostly read paperbacks and it's too heavy), a flashlight with dead batteries (too lazy to replace them, I guess) ...
Bottom drawer - filled notepads and small notebooks (I have quite a few more packed away somewhere). I keep a daily journal - not a blow by blow of the events of the day - just my thoughts or tidbits about my life at that moment in time. I go back to them from time to time and believe it or not, they have gotten me through quite a few "difficult periods " during the past 10-15 yrs. Therapy that you don't have to pay for !! Unfortunately, I was (am) somewhat of a worrier. Instead of dealing with "what is", I tend to wander off to " what if ?". I have gotten better with it, but have finally learned to admit that I still a long ways to go.
The night stand on the other side of the bed ... where no one sleeps, so it doesn't get used. Note: the Mars / Venus book has never been read - why bother?? My bedroom is boring - no sig other to share it with, hence no need to read the book. I often wonder why I bought it so many years ago - it was probably on sale !!
The drawers - just a few bits of stuff - no real significance to any of it - I just won't throw them away. A few months ago, I cleaned out the books that were just sitting there ( and ironically, my brother, just the other day, asked me if I had any romance novels that I had read and didn't want anymore - before you jump to any conclusions, he was asking for his wife - something new for her to read because he says one can spend too much money on new books that just end up in a corner somewhere! and this is his subtle way of trying to "recycle" and save him a few bucks!) Who knew? Now I know what to do with them !!
The note card ... goodness, my face is turning red just writing this down. About 10 years ago, when in a relationship that was having some difficulty, I reverted back to my high school days (maybe even middle school) and wrote a poem - the kind where each line begins with a letter of some one's name. Mind you, I have been out of high school for thirty mumble years!! (so I am not an overgrown lovestruck teenager) (He never saw it, I don't think!!)(and if he did by some chance, he probably just tossed it aside and rolled his eyes). It was written for me - and I still have it ... out in the open and on display, where I can see it and even read it if I want to.
It's a reminder of the not so distant past, a reminder of a time when I was struggling with loneliness and self worth, a reminder of when I didn't quite have my priorities in the right place ... A CONSTANT REMINDER of just how far I have progressed in my life since those days.
He left me a little over 6 years ago when he returned to NH (with no intention of a long distance relationship which I had no inclination about at the time) and I miss him still -as silly as it sounds to write that down ... I was heartbroken for quite a long while ...
BUT little did I know at the time when I wrote that silly little poem that it would be so helpful for me in the years to come. That is why it still sits on my night stand to this day!! He has moved on with his life, but most importantly SO HAVE I !
There ... I bared my soul as instructed ... sorry to have gotten off track ...
Make sure to visit Angela (probably now on Tuesday because this post is so late - Blogger wouldn't cooperate earlier and I worked late (once again - always on a Monday it seems when I have much better things to tend to)) and check out everyone else's (in Angela's words) BEDSIDE SET OF DRAWERS. NOTE: I have a dream catcher too, but it hangs on the door instead of the bed.